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15 May 2006
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I read Ali's blog. I understand what he's going through. At this point of time, I wished I could leave this all behind. Like, isn't it cool to just forget everything. Meet new people. Start life anew. People who don't know me. People, who can't hurt me. Start everything anew. That's something I'll wish for. Forget everyone, everything. With a brand new heart, which has never been scarred or hurt.Forgive me for feeling this way. But, in a world like this, I've given up hope. Everything turns out wrong. Nothing falls into place. Forgive me for being sensitive. Forgive me for crying. But you made it turn out this way. I'm never able to fathom what's in your head nor your heart. Your actions varies in just mere seconds. One second, I'm like the most important person, and the next, you can completely ignore me and walk off with someone else. Who am I to you? I've always thought, maybe this would be a new change. That you wouldn't treat me like everyone else have done. Like, probably, for once, I meant something to someone. But you just proven me wrong, yet again. Why do things have to turn out this way? I mean, if I did read the actions wrongly, than maybe it's my fault. But it's not my fault if people around me agrees with my intepretation & feel the same way I do. It's not my fault if everyone says that your actions, too show that I mean more than a friend to you. So, who am I to you actually? Someone you think you can chuck away, just cause you found someone new.? Sigh. In this world, I've given up hope. I'll just swallow whatever life throws at me. I guess if I didn't care as much, then it wouldn't hurt this much too. I'm just looking forward to tmr bimbo's outing. I hope Nad's able to make it. Then it'll be full house. Gone the girl you thought you knew, gone the girl who knew how to smile. Love, Yana. |
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nor liyana mohd khalis.i'm always in love with pretty boys. like as if i don't learn from experience, i always give in to sweet words. and i never learn from the past. i'm vulnerable to hurt, but i'd like to believe i'm stronger than i seem. jauh di dasar hatiku, aku tahu aku masih kasihimu dan menyintaimu. namun kau sudah berpunya, kau sudah bercinta. disini kita berakhir, tergantung segala cerita dan kisah lama. wishlist
an arsenal jersey please.to watch a play. tagboard
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